Feed Your Passion....

Feed your passion? Exactly. I wanted a short title that said it all. Some questions may come up.  What is my passion? What feeds my passion? Am I feeding my passion?

How this blog came about. It was just after midnight. I had a new set of blue tooth headphones and I was listening to Pandora just to see how they sounded. A Sequence of songs came along on our "Mumford & Sons" station. I listened with rapt attention. I could hear every nuance of the music in the noise cancelling headphones . I could hear and appreciate clearly the artistry of arrangements. The use of subtle percussion to drive rhythms. The musical passion of the musicians was mesmerizing. At the same time it was more than that.

As I laid back, I heard a directive: "Feed Your Passion" and I knew EXACTLY what was being asked at a very deep level. I always listen to these messages. They are so clear and definite.

It was about feeding my passion, but much more than that. It was about feeding the passion of as many others that will listen. Certainly, I will feed my passion. At the same time it is my desire that we each individually feed our own passions. No one can feed your passion for you.

It's not a one time thing. It is constant. Each day do something that inspires your passion. Something that allows you to sit back and say... ahhh... that feels right. That assists me. That assists who I am deep inside. It can be anything. A call to a distant friend. A Facebook post that reveals a part of you to friends. Giving assistance to someone. Sitting in a yoga posture that engenders a deep sense of who you are. It is important that the act "just" flow from you. It's not about how many points you can get on the feeling scale. Or about intentionally creating something. What is created flows naturally from you and is IN you and you then see that what is inside you is really outside you as well. It becomes as if you are looking at a mirror from both sides.

Places that may seem strange to you ultimately feed your passion. My blue tooth headphones fed my passion! Who knew! Pay attention. Be aware. Look for that spark of satisfaction that reveals you and who you are at the deepest level of this duality. It is one aspect of you, but it is rooted in the quantum space of all that is and your connection to your passion let's the space of all that is rise up in you. That is exciting to me, for it is the space of joy, when the space of "all that is" reveals in you. It is such a powerful place and it is important to know and acknowledge that you have touched that place... you have  allowed yourself to enter that sacred space. The sacred space of the joy of being you.

Many people want to "look" for their passion, like it is one thing. I'll be so bold to say that it is everything... everything you are and lives in everything that is. So, your passion has no limits! It is not just one thing... a passion for music, a passion for dance, a passion for leading, a passion for healthcare... yes, it is all of these both collectively and individually.

Here I was, looking at how my noise cancelling headphones sounded and yet, I was immersed deeply in who I am. Deeply in my passion for music. I felt myself at the deepest level. I became the music and expressed myself in myself through what the music awoke in me. Passion. This blog then too arises from my passion. It became really important to me to communicate what this experience awoke in me with the clear intention of awaking a passion in anyone who reads this.

Then, I realized all of my blogs come from this passion. So, from evaluating my headphones, then writing this blog, I had had this realization... it is all passion... just connect with what you do. Too many of us want to objectify it. Passion is this. I "work" at my passion. You may do what you call "work" at your passion, but make no mistake. If  it truly is "work"... it's not passion. It is not flowing from the unlimited source that is you.

Feed your passion so that it flows from the unlimited source...

Taking The Lid Off!

Taking the lid off? Off of what? YOU!

I had been concerned that Montressa or I had not posted to the blog in awhile and the other night I heard - "Take the lid off!" So, I said, "Okay, let's look at that."

Well first thing, what is the lid? As you do, I had a sense of the metaphor presented by this. As I sat with that for awhile, I started to look at how the "lid" confines me. And then, what would happen if there was no lid. If my confinement was removed?

So, then I started to look at what confines me. Then where does that come from?

One thing for sure is my thinking that things are a certain way. They aren't any way. They are the way they are and they shift according to my attention. That is, as soon as I put my attention on something it is already shifting. Sound familiar? Heisenberg Theory of uncertainty. As soon as you go to examine something it becomes vague. You then are uncertain about where it "really" is. Interesting how we accept this in the physics lab, but not our life.

Okay, so where is this lid? I mean a pickle jar has a lid and I know where it is, right? How about us as humans? Where's our lid?

That question is worth looking into in detail. My immediate answer is that it is invisible, at least to us!! And, that is exactly the issue. We need to look for it. Look for bars that are confining us. That's the thing. It's a prison where you can't see the bars without looking for them. Yet, if you put your attention on them - they show up! I love Dr. Heisenberg! IF there is a reason to become an aware individual that would be it! To look for your invisible confinements. Look for things that are keeping you from being YOU. Looking for that lid.

Even our fear is part of the lid... oh my what would happen if the "lid" came off? There is fear in that question that probes our most intimate of unknowns.

There are many that would like to keep the status quo. Well, even if it is "bad" at least it is known, not like what could happen if we take the lid off. Scary, right? So, fear does "help" keep the lid in place. Remember, it takes courage to be you. It's not that you don't have the fear... you do... but take it with you as you look for the lid in you.

New Year...New Time... Happy 2014

So, it's a New Year soon and my life goes on.... but the question is how does it go on? When I wake up to a new day, what is it I see? What I see is what I have generated to this point in my navigation of the quantum space. I see things I like and I see things that I would like shifted. How do I shift them?

To identify them I must be honest with myself and accept exactly what is. Next step is to know what I want. Health, body image, career and how I relate to the universe. What I see is exactly where my thoughts have been... where the speaking of my life has been... the things I see that I would like to shift were put there by where my attention and life force were focused in the "past". The question now is... what do I want to create now and to reference the future... in this year? Obviously, that is looking forward and it does not exist in the now. It does exist in the now as I "think" about it. However, I exist in the now and am generating my future at this moment. This is the power of you at work... generating the "future".

So..New Year, a powerful time both for review and generation. The generation of your life!

Through the past year I have provided clues as to where you can look within you to find out who you are and who you choose to be. The fun thing is accepting yourself just the way you are will provide the insights needed to guide you to the place in you you choose to unfold.

You can be whoever and however you chose to be. That is the magic of life!! That is the magic of the "quantum space". ALL limitations are set by you and those limitations actually restrain YOU. So, little you, ego, sets limitations around big YOU. I wanted to provide a very clear picture of what is actually happening and it's all good... there is nothing wrong here because you get to chose your life moment by moment!

My best Wishes to all for a powerful 2014 filled with the power of your soul or Core...

Have What You Have... and Insights

Since Mike started this yesterday, I'm gonna run with it!! "We so many times "rush" to judgment - like if I feel this way or that way I must be a "bad" person and we run away from it. Oh no! I am such a... fill in the blank... I say NO, you are just "feeling" what you are feeling - YOU aren't anything! THAT is how you start to uncover the GOLD in you! Be willing to HAVE what you have."

And, so that is one of the secrets of insights. Be WILLING to have what you have. Then notice what comes up for you in terms of judgments or other feelings. Many times we are not even WILLING to have the feeling because there is an attached judgment. Oh, I don't want to be a bad person so I'm not even going there!! It's okay... trust me... here's the downside, see that German Shepard with his head under the table and his butt sticking in the air... he thinks he's hiding because his eyes are covered!

That's what I'm saying about insights. You enter a crowded room at a party and "feel" funny. Like "maybe" you don't belong. You scan the room for someone you know. Don't see anyone. Behind that is "I'm uncomfortable". Behind that is the idea, "I wish I had stayed home." Behind that is, "I don't know anyone here." Some of that you are making up. Do you really not know anyone there? How did you get invited then? So, insight - when I get uncomfortable I begin to make up stuff that makes me more uncomfortable and instead of resolving the discomfort I want to get away from it.

Suddenly, someone paying attention to the room sees you. He immediately picks up on your discomfort. Why? 1)Because he is paying attention 2) He is willing to acknowledge what's up within himself. He sees you standing there and "knows" from his own pool of insights what you "might" be feeling. So, this guy there noticed this German Shepard with her head under a table and her eyes covered thinking she was hiding. EVEN THAT is an insight... even if I try to cover my feelings someone can pick up on them!! So, he comes over and says - "Hey, you look lost" and laughs to let you know he "gets" your feeling of discomfort and who you are in that moment. Based on your previous insights you know to just be real. "Yeah, Darby didn't tell me so many people would be here!" Now the party "ice" has been broken and at the same time you learned a lot about yourself.

Every moment of our lives hold the keys to who we are. As I said, you must be willing to have what you have. You don't have to believe it... just have it. That's the key. That's why enlightened people will tell you to take yourself lightly. In the duality is the existence of a blended being - Mind, heart and core! As you go deeper and deeper into who you are, you also understand how YOU operate in this quantum space. Hey... it's still a quantum space that is always operating. Always be aware of that.

Live Your Insights...

As we go through life our awareness deepens and we have insights about ourselves and our life. Having insights is one thing... living insights is something else! So, as we have the insights, it is important to incorporate them into our life. I'm not talking about nice ideas, but true insights. How do you know the difference? Insights come from a deeper place in you. And, that is part of the journey - To differentiate between "knowings", which I am calling insights, and nice ideas which are a product of your ego and mind. All of the "issues", things that are less appealing about our life on earth, are a product of mind and ego which occur to us as what I am calling "nice ideas". They arise from what we think. We "think" this is this way or that is that way. And, those thoughts are influenced by our emotions and judgments and evaluations of feelings. "Oh, I shouldn't feel that way". Why shouldn't you? That's what came up in you! Rather than censor it, look at it. It doesn't matter whether you should or shouldn't have that feeling or judgment. Fact is, you have it! THAT is information for you, about you. By acknowledging it you have choices in regard to it.

The "idea", for instance, "I own this land." How can you own something that you are a part of? Yeah, we own ourselves, but we really don't "own" ourselves. We are fully responsible for ourselves. Wouldn't the land of earth be treated the same way? We are responsible for this land. This is one of the reasons I say words in your life are important. The words create a relationship to you, an access to you. That is why I say to watch your words. Anyway, back to "nice ideas". Interesting, I now see that some of the issues that arise from "nice ideas" are actually imprecise use of words. Okay, then the words create an access to who and what we are. So, if I say "I own this land" what comes up in me?  This feeling of possession. A feeling of supreme authority. Yeah, right. Look at what Katrina did to New Orleans. Supreme authority. Umm... probably not! Own would not be the proper word to use in relation to all that is, would it?

This is what I am saying about awareness - it occurs like mini-awakenings on your journey which is a good reason to pay attention. Your insights are not there by accident, but are your route to enlightenment. It's a cumulative thing. The more you can live them, the more insights you have and the more enlightened you become! Is there an end-point? YOU tell me!

As we become aware of what is arising in us and put aside our judgments, we can get a clearer picture of who we are and what our journey has been. Then insights can arise within us about where we have been on our journey and what choices we might want to make based on them.

Whoami...

Yes, it's all run together. Like my life was!! Who Am I? The topical question now-a-days, isn't it? Notice how much more meaning is has when it is all spelled out... almost like we would like our life to be! Well, the secret? Accept your life. That's where it all starts. I was born into a rich family. Like if I was rich then I'd be okay.

Rich? What does that mean exactly? These are questions I directly or indirectly had to confront. I even had to confront those same questions in other people. Old boyfriends, new boyfriends... all with similar meanings and answers. The one common element was, it was not about the money or the wealth. It was more about what the money "means" to us and what the money does "for" us or "to" us. And, I can say, it does different things for different people... me included. For me the questions were, "How does this support me?" "How much do I "need"?"  "What do I want in my life?" These questions must be answered because they are part of the "whoami". As you address "Who Am I?", so you can begin to address money and wealth as well. Money looks like the currency of "external" life. As in what you actually see here and now. In fact, it is something deeper... it is your ability to continually unfold your existence... so to confuse what you see "here and now" with richness of being, that is a "mistake". Well, I know that's a judgment, but if you don't separate the two "whoami" and money Who are you? And, by the way, I am using money in the broadest context. It really is wealth I'm talking about. And, of course we can get into semantics about it, but that's not the point.

I was very fortunate. Some choices were easy for me because I already knew the other sides of the choices. Others could find it more difficult. It's like people who want to be "rock stars" or "movie stars" and collect money, don't realize there are sides to that ambition that are less appealing. Privacy, paparazzi etc.. A promotional manager that actually manages your life! Sounds good, right? Until you need to be on a plane at 5:00 AM because you need to be in a city two thousand miles away for a ten o'clock! Oh, except that you just got back from an awards party at 1 AM!!

So, "whoami". Choose wisely. Get to YOU.. not you...   you have ideas about what would work... but YOU know exactly what works... YOU has the greater wisdom. What others "think"? Not relevant. Oh, I will say what others "know" could be relevant... there's a big difference between what people "tell" you and what they KNOW! But, that again gets back to YOU knowing it too. If YOU know it, it will resonate...

Many Awakenings...

To me enlightenment occurs as a process. Sure, voila, you can be enlightened. However, there is a process of sustaining the energy level or "vibration" level. And, I know for some that sounds wu-wu, but I just don't know at this point how else to reference it. Hmmm... and the opposite is? I do know how to reference it. Okay, okay... give me a second to let that settle. New moment!! So, it is a vibration, just like tuning a radio. You tune to what you want to hear on the radio and similarly to what you want to experience in life. So, to me, enlightenment happens in steps. The best analogy I can give is grab two wires with 50 volts. Ouch. now try it again, and again. Now let's try 100 volts! Ouch. etc. Pretty soon you can train your self to handle that. By the way, I'm talking lower current here!! Still, you get the idea. As we live, if we are "paying attention", and you know that's a sensitive spot with me because as humans we don't "pay attention" hmmm... we miss many times what is going on and there's the rub, there's the inhibitor to enlightenment. In fact, we say things and when asked, "What did you say?" we can't even repeat it. We get, "Well, I said something to effect of..." No...no... what EXACTLY did you say? EVERYTHING is there for a reason. The quantum space operates ALL the time 24/7. Look, I'm not trying to make you paranoid... not...hmmm... I want to show you what is happening. See how I'm watching my words. THAT's what it takes to communicate clearly. THAT's how you show respect to people. THAT's how you show respect to yourself. You communicate from, my life is so worth it and your life is so worth it that I want you to get me perfectly and I want to get YOU perfectly!! Watching my words is showing the greatest respect I can give you. Okay, now that you know I totally respect you, many awakenings. See, this ties into what I was saying about paying attention. There are many things in life that are awakening us, but we are not letting ourselves be aware of them... not... hmmm... we miss awakening moments. And, BY THE WAY, THAT is fine. Nothing is happening by accident... hmmm... everythying is happening for a purpose. You are not ready to sustain it... hmmm... sustaining it is difficult for you. BUT, I know you see glimpses. Just like I do and did. You see through it for a spilt second. Golden moments. That's when your core engages and you are totally intuitive. In that space you know all you need to know. Pretty cool stuff. Suddenly, the thought flashes... "I don't know what I just said." (don't is okay here because you "do not know" - you could also say "my attention was somewhere else")... and you go back and retrieve it. THAT my friends is a mini-awakening... a step to enlightment. Living this human life we so many times over look the obvious. I once saw a sign, "God created the simple things to confound the wise!!" Loved it!! And, yes sometimes the awakening is huge! At least its affect on you! That's how you gage it, if you want to judge it. A person could say one simple sentence and your whole life profoundly changes for the better. But, remember this, that one sentence did not get there by accident... was there for a purpose. YOU invited it in. YOU were ready to "hear" it in a profound way!!

It's All Gonna Be Different!

So, I was talking about owning yourself, awakening and it's all gonna be different. The awakening - that's the thing that can start the process of you evolving in a very tangible way. What happens is that something happens that is completely different than you expect. Sometimes something very simple. The most extreme I ever heard was these two guys were walking to their motel that was say about a mile away. Took one step together and were at the motel!! True story. Another time these two other guys were driving home and saw a sign on the highway flicker. Didn't think much of it. Then found out they had just made a four and half hour trip in less than four hours!! It was after midnight and they NEVER went over the speed limit. Taking the route they took there was no way that it would happen in four hours. True story. In the second case, the theory was that there were "frames" missing from the continuum. That sign flicker was actually the first sign of it for them. So, awakening can happen in many ways. Certainly you HAVE to be open to it and you need to be paying attention to your life. Once you can accept that, then it WILL all be different. Profound changes like that that wake you up. And, it doesn't have to be that dramatic either. Sometimes it's very subtle. You wake up one day and just know through all of you that your life has changed. Anthony Robbins is an example of that. One day he woke up in his 700 square foot apartment, overweight, no money and just "saw" that it all needed to be different. This can also happen when there is a "dramatic" event in your life, but it doesn't have to. See, that's what I mean about the mystery of life. Actually it "really" isn't a mystery, but the local mind just can't wrap itself around it. Like one step to a motel that is one mile away or a missing half hour. So, it's easy to say... life is mysterious. And, for the local mind, that's fine. I'm just saying don't stop there. Keep going. Go into the mystery deeper. I had to and it was worth it! Otherwise, as I've said before, "You're navigating the quantum space without a license!!"